Forgive me, I am a sinner.
I was a brat, very selfish and rotten. I didn’t love my parents, the more I got, the more I wanted freedom. But to selfish to run away. I had an abortion. I used diet pills to get through college. I used diet pills to succeed. I drank to come down. I was a virgin and had premarital sex at 22. Ruined it to have a white wedding. Every man I had a relationship with became or was a drug addict. I showed my daughter homosexual festival. I let her have sex and drink before 18. I helped her have abortion. I didn’t know who her father was at first. Same reason I aborted the first. I am a recovered alcoholic. I still am on pain med. Addicted sadly. I know I’ll die or suffer in a disaster. So will diabetics, but they have extra insulin, I don’t have extra medicine. I fall in love with love. I have been celibate 18 years. (Not a sin!!!!!) 😮. I am wrinkled and toothless from smoking cigarettes. I do not have memory loss. (Not a sin! ). I am a liar to my roommate, I promised to clean up the messy house and cry and give up. Need diet pills but expensive now. 😫 I pray for forgiveness and grace Lord. I don’t want to go to hell. I only have cats that love me. I want someone normal (white) non druggie to love me. I want to do something right before I die Lord please. I’m not a bad person. I say stupid illogical things. I cry. I feel. I hope. I own nothing but this phone. And Appleware. I owe bills. 2700 dollars. I live on 895 a month. I wish I could work. I wish I had a friend here now. I want to go to heaven. I am open to science but not wrong being right. I currently am having feelings for a old crush from the past I never met. How stupid is that? I actually fantasise about him being my friend for real.